bitter almond

Blood pressure I ni sentiasa naik pasal you.

You tolong I mampus cepat ada la.

All you care is about money and material.

Go cari anak raja

I nak you suffer seumur hidup you sebab tak reti appreciate

I will get every chance to ruin your work life sampai ke anak cucu

Rumah you tak kan selamat selagi I hidup. You just wait.

I sumpah semua ni. I sumpah you tak aman selagi you tahu appreciate benda yang ada, babi.

You can go kasi badan you dekat lelaki lain perempuan murah

Eat Pray Love

Meet Julia Roberts. ;)

This would be my favourite movie of 2010 and 2011.


We were talking the other evening about the phrases one uses when trying to comfort someone from who is in distress. I told him that in English we sometimes say,

"I've been there."

This was unclear to him at first - I've been where? But I explained that deep grief sometimes is almost like a specific location, a coordinate on a map of time.

When you are standing in that forest of sorrow, you cannot imagine that you could ever find your way to a better place.

But if someone can assure you that they themselves have stood in that same place, and now have moved on, sometimes this brings hope.

(Julia Roberts as Liz in Eat Pray Love)

OMG!

Owh my gosh. I was going through some comic strips and see what I found. Boo boo. It's too adorable, I have to show it to the world!

Lines.

I found this comic strip. I think it's trying to relate to me.

uploaded.

uploaded a few pictures on facebook!

These are the more polite pictures I have of us. LOL!

21 Questions.

1. How are you feeling right now? - Upset.

2. You wanna talk about it? - No!

3. What do you want to talk about? - What makes me happy.

4. What makes you happy? - Food and novels.

5. Anything else? - When I can say what I want out loud, I'm very happy.

6. What did you do today? - Bunch of productive and unproductive activities. LOL.

7. Name one productive thing? - Watched American Idol season 10. Damn, JLo is gorgeous!

8. One unproductive thing? - studying. just wouldn't get through

10. Feeling better? - A tiny bit but thanks for reminding me.

11. Who was the last person that buzzed u on your cell? - Jim Ajmal.

12. Who is that? - Currently my boyfriend.

13. Have u changed since the past 6 months? - Maybe..

14. For the better or worse? - Entah lah. u make your own judgement kay.

15. what are you scared of the most? - His mood swings.

16. Is there a scientific name for your fear? - If I made it up, would it count?

17. What's your fav quote? - For better or for worse.

18. What is the colour your closet consist of the most? - Purple and Green. :D

19. What do you need the most now? - A nice relaxing holiday. For one night pun takpe.

20. 3 most important thing in your life? - My IC, my maybank card and my phone. :D

21. Are u missing someone? - Not just one person, I miss a lot of ppl!

If ever.

If I ever get to say something to you.

3 words.

GET OVER YOURSELF!!!

50 things he loves about me.

He gave me this list for me to hold on to.

1. I love you
2. I love how you look at me.
3. I love your sense of fashion.
4. I love the way you stare at me
5. I love how patient you are with me
6. I love how worried you get when I tell you to pick me up
7. I love the way you look at me
8. I love how you prefer me being one step down on the escalator
9. I love the fact that you want to have my baby
10. I love the fact that you are my baby
11. I love the fact that I've known you for so long
12. I love the fact that we've been best friends
13. I love the fact that you're my girlfriend
14. I love how you over care for me when I'm not okay
15. I love the way you ask me how I feel from the scale of 1 to 10
16. I love the way your hand fits mine
17. I love the way you tell me you love me
18. I love the thought that I would spend the rest of my life with you
19. I love how caring you are towards your cat
20. I love being there for you
21. -
22. -
23. I love how gedik you sound when you get all manja with me
24. I love how you tell me the names of our baby girls.
25. I love how you lean on me when I'm driving
26. -
27. -
28. I love the fact that I know you like the scent of Lavender
29. I would love to go anywhere with you
30. I love how demanding you are when it comes over me
31. -
32. I love the way you tease me
33. I love how you care about what I think
34. I love the fact that I could say I love you every time
35. I love the fact that you tell me you love me everytime
36. I love how you say that I'm adorable
37. I love it when you say I'm your sexy man (LOL)
38. I love how hard working you are
39. I love how lazy you are
40. I love how messy you are
41. I love cleaning up after you once in a while
42. I love how close you are to Mama
43. I love how you hold my hand when we're walking
44. I love how you hold my hand evem when we're in the house
45. I love how you sleep like a bear in hibernation :D
46. I love how eager you sound when I decide not to tell you something
47. I love how you want me to talk to you
48. I love the way you call me boo boo
49. I love that you eat a lot
50. Most of all, I love to call you mine and would love to spend the rest of my life as yours

p/s: thank you for the amazing list. u did it in one hour. Iloveyou too.

Finger.

I'VE BEEN RESTLESS.

MY HANDS ARE BARE.

TELL HIM I WANT A RING ON MY FINGER.

A.S.A.P.

P/S: please read this soon.

Caught

I came home to catch Nachos on top of the hamster's cage.

what?

no idea.

It's been a long day. A long day of trying, attempts and possibilities.

But all that amounts to hope and hope I have non left.

Good night.

1st Day.

Today has been hectic and non stop for me. I managed to do 1000 things and still try to stay positive.

A slave to my own new year's resolution.

I took a different turn this year in making my new year's resolution. No more crappy goals like loosing weight or wearing make-up everyday. But it seems harder than I thought.

First is to stay calm and positive in most situations.
Shish. The first day on the move pun rasa macam I can't do it. It's so hard to stay calm when I have such a short temper since I was 6 years old. Not forgetting how 'patient' of a person I am.

Second is to apply for a job during my semester break. It's not so hard actually. I just have to make sure I like what I'm doing.

Third is to control my expenditure. This would probably be the hardest resolution yet. Hence, the job I need to get so I don't bust my bank balance.

Fourth would be to go for a holiday trip. Preferably to Europe. :)

So I guess that's about it. Told you there's no more crappy resolutions from me.

xoxo.

2010

I was reading a post i blogged last year about my 2009.

To keep the tradition alive, before these last few days turn into January I guess I'd talk about 2010 too.

This year has blown away so fast but it generally has been a good year and I'm thankful for that.

School has been the toughest semester yet but I made it through , Alhamdulillah.

I grew up. I think that's what I basically perceive of myself. I made a few weird but life changing decisions that made my life easier and harder at the same time. Bare in mind, never I regret those decisions.

For the first time in my life, I've been analyzed and judged by the public's eye. Quite interesting I must say and I never knew I could be THAT interesting.

I also know that success, achievements and the right decisions are the hardest things to make. IT'S NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN MAKING MUCH ANYWAY!

LOL.

My friends, I've made a few, kept a few and they're precious to me. My friends especially have helped me through and through the past year and I'm glad I found you guys.

and of course, family has been up and down, here and there. :)

That's about it.

Happy New Year, everyone! Welcome 2011.

If it was a competition.

If it was a competition, I would win it even before it all started.

Anyway, can't wait for New Year's.

shish.

I hope ure reading my blog and it brings u as much pain possible.

that's how much i despise u now.

p/s: u were only a joke but now ure really getting under my skin, b*tch.

One Tree Hill.

Thank goodness for my very smart and sensible Jim, he lend me his One Tree Hill CDs and I've been hooked on it since last nite just so I can keep my sanity in check.

I grew up with this TV series and I actually got to realise how much different things were back then. My 13 year old sister was so amazed by how much more content there is in One Tree Hill.

I guess all that partying, chanel handbags, booze and thick pancake make-up in series like 'gossip girls' and 90210 are just not cutting it anymore.

Stronger story lines, real friendships and a real moral benefit from every episode sounds more interesting doesn't it.

Third CD here I come.

p/s: I miss u. Why does it have to be a 14 hour flight?

Sad much.

It's obvious I'm already missing u.

I'm already watching one tree hill before u have even left. shish.

the only thing i despise the most about watching it is because it reminds me of your past.

I honestly need to calm down.

xo.

Love, Syaz.

On A Lighter Note.

He instructed me to stop stalking.

He said it's not good for my health and our relationship.

It's worse at the fact that he'll be gone for the next twelve days to visit the Queen.

I need a plan to distract myself.

1. Watch One Tree Hill from season 1 to season 8 as much as possible.

2. Try to act normal everyday. Be it taking a bath after I wake up, have breakfast and all that sort of things.

3. Maybe try not to have a nervous breakdown.

4. Revamp my room maybe? (KIV)

5. Read as much novels I can get my hands on.

6. Blog as much as possible (LOL, LAME!)

7. Refrain myself from excessive blogging (OVER OBVIOUS REASON ABOVE)

8. STAY SANE!

p/s: U8/74A will miss 74E

tolerate

Today has been a sucky day. Spent the day in tears and afterwards, a nose blocked and a huge migraine. Well, I guess I'm blogging right now because of those tears.. heeee..

Bare in mind, I'm one spoiled little girl so thank you for being there for me and my family for the last 14 days especially. You've been wonderful and still am to me, Mama and Awiq. No words are sufficient to express my gratitude towards you.

Of course, at the fact that you took me away for one night. It was a very kind act and I appreciate it. I had a super awesome time with ordering McDonald's and watching National Geography all night long.

Being there for me when I was having a nervous breakdown at 3am. Making sure I sleep okay and you're there when I start crying again in the morning after I wake up. It is a very difficult time for me and you being there every step of the way is just amazing.

Mum even said I am very lucky to have a good boyfriend like you in times like this. She told me that this morning when I was crying buckets down the phone with her.

When I take a moment to think how you silently slip into my life, I get caught in awe. My life is entwined with yours. Even one day with you not in my home, mum starts shooting me questions on your where abouts and our relationship status.

I have a caring mother and You.

Writing this out, I just realised I should count my blessings. I mean, I really really should count. Despite the difficult days we all had to go through, I have an amazing support system to make sure I get out alive from all this.

Growing up and turning into an adult, I know it's difficult but I never knew all this could be so overwhelming. Despite how soft hearted I always assume my mum is, she is actually one strong human being.

stop it.

I'm actually still stalking. sumpah malu.
haha. syaz, stop.